link hereI hate that I want a life I can't have because my parents split up and are now poor so I can't have half the things my friends have and
I hate that I blame my friends for that when it's not their fault and it's not even my parents fault.
I hate the way my mother acts like she's this amazing insightful woman with the 'problem child' who thinks that she can run my life simply because shes forty years older than me.
I hate the way she talks down to me and blames every problem she has in life on me and how she's trying to make sure I'm as fucked up as she and her Mum are.
I hate the way my Dad will stick up for her even though she threw him out of the house and tries to make him miseraable at every oppertunity she can.
I hate that she keeps reminding me how lucky I am to have her and to be clever like her and to have her looks so why don't I trt a bit harder to become her because she has such an amazing life. Guess what Mum? Here's a summary of your life. You're unemployed and have taken all of you kids savings to provide for your life. You drove your husband to spending every penny he had on you and ending up a miserable lonely man. You've raised a daughter who is 'socially retarded' and a fuck up, and a son who can't socialise properley and who regularly beats people up for no reason. If I turn out like you, I may kill myself because I know that all of my problems have stemmed from you and I refuse to impose that on MY kids. And
I HATE that I can't say this to her smug evil face because she's my Mother and however fucked up she makes me, I have to be grateful and kiss her arse like a good little daughter.
I hate my life.
Apr 22 2:39 AM MST 
