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I hate having sex with my selfish, sleazy, childish husband. I hate how sexually aggressive he is. I hate how he acts like we're making some low budget porn flick every time I try to show intimacy. I hate that he always has to escalate things to full blown sex. I can’t even hug or touch him without feeling like I'm giving him blue balls. I hate that he doesn't seem to care about what I want or need sexually. I've told him so many times that being sleazy and rushing things isn’t working for me, that I've stop telling him. I hate how he rolls his eyes when I tell him I need to ease into things and feel like we can be physical and intimate without it leading to full on sex. I hate how he can say the most insulting hurtful things, then try to suffocate me with his touch and get angry if I don't fake pretend that I forgive him. I hate when he touches me. I hate forcing myself to have to think about him sexually. I hate myself for thinking about other men. I hate him for always saying any sex problem we have is my fault. I hate myself for always going back to blaming myself for our sex problems, just because it's the easiest thing to do. Jul 29 11:56 AM MST