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I hate being attractive. Sure, you think I'm insane. But I hate being labeled as a sex object instead of a girl who has something fantastic to say. I hate not having any REAL girlfriends due to jealousy and competition. I hate working in a store where all I do is get hit on by 40 year old men and embarassed in front of my co-workers. "You should wear baggy clothes," my co-workers say with a look of disgust on their faces. I hate walking home at night and having someone circle around the block a few times, stop and yell "Hey girl can I holla?". I hate being degraded as a sex object in the public eye; in front of my friends, my family, my co-workers. I hate not being taken seriously by men; they only pursue me to conquer me. I hate not being able to find a serious relationship and only cocky one night standers. I hate that men never really try to get to know me; why can't you compliment the fact that I have a 4.0 college GPA and not how huge my breasts are? I hate feeling disgusting and trashy after some guy at a party randomly grabs my ass and then high fives his friend. I hate that all men see is a pretty face and a nice piece of meat, as opposed to a good heart and a mind blowing intellectual journey. But what I hate the most is that I hate myself for letting all of this happen, and never standing up for myself. I hate that you see me as truly vulnerable; what I hate the most is that I act as if i truly am. Dec 22 5:12 PM MST