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I hate that I have the most beautiful baby girl ever, yet I feel depressed why? because I got told yesterday that she's deaf.

I have know idea how to cope with the shock, I should have known when she doesn't turn her head or anything to look at you when you talk to her, doesn't stir from her sleep when there is a loud noise such as a door slamming.
I don't know how to communicate with deaf people, I've never had the chance to get to know any deaf people so communication wasn't a barrier, I feel terrible as a new mum, I knew nothing about babies when I had her, and now that i'm just getting to grips with how to take care of a baby, I now have to get to grips with taking care of a deaf baby.

It really fucking hurts that she'll never hear my voice when I tell her I love her.
even if she got offered cochlear (sp?) implants (bionic ear) on the NHS, she would STILL never hear my voice, just tones that try to mimic the soundwaves of sounds and voices to help her with speech.

it seems so cruel that my tiny 2 week old should be deaf when all these bastards that go round raping and murdering people don't have any impairments at all, yet my little daughter has been robbed of a natural human sense.

and I hate that all these people on here are complaining about shitty little things like having spots, and I'm feeling the worst pain i've ever felt because there is nothing I can do to help my little girl, If I had the choice I'd give her my hearing and be deaf in her place. Mar 20 8:12 AM UTC

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i hate that my period is really late but the pregnancy test says not pregnant.i'm so confused because of heard of the same thing happening to other women who were really pregnant.i hate that my body is in some sort of limbo here.just let me know what I need to know.I can work it all out from there. Mar 1 10:35 AM UTC

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I hate our brain isnt the type of "computer" that can erase things..
.....its so sad.... I am happily married but after years and years of not seeing you and hearing about you (well, just heard you have a new girlfriend and wanna marry her but thats about it) I cant seem to forget about you...I think about you EVERY day and its so sad, how can a be married and love this person while at the same time your memory still makes me cry???
.......I just wish my brain could erase you completely....
I want to get some kind of "Past Amnesia" ...I want to be able to only remember my life from my wedding day till the day i die..
....I hate we cant earse memories...I hate he made me cry in the past and now that he is not a part of my present i hate he is making me cry as well
PLEASE, GET OUT MY MIND! Dec 29 7:35 PM UTC

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I hate that my social anxiety, low self-esteem and fear of rejection are taking. over. my. life. Jun 17 3:25 PM UTC

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I hate that drugs and alcohol are always picked over me. And how my friends claim that it doesnt change them. If it didnt change you, does that mean you'd always pick a substance over me? I wish i was more. So you just kick back with your joint in one hand, and bong in the other, and i'll kick back with myself, and wonder where the fuck i went wrong. Aug 19 6:19 PM UTC

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I hate that my boyfriend is shy and that i am shy. There's just no sparks in our relationship and it's driving me crazy! I am trying to open up to him but somehow he makes me feel weird. He does the weirdest things sometimes... because he is shy? I do not know. There we were hanging out, my parents asked him if he wanted pizza... he said sure... then when its just us two he starts debating out loud and its weird and then he wants to go home. Who does that! It made me sad and now i am sad. Sorry for my whole diary thing. I hate how this is making me feel! I hate that i thought having a boyfriend would make me happy because in actuality it is making me more depressed than ever! Guys.. aghh! I hate this... Dec 30 6:23 PM UTC

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I hate when you're sad and someone always says it could be worse. That doesn't help at all. I may not be poor and living in the streets or starving in Africa or living in Iraq and losing my family. It's some of the saddest shit ive ever heard. It's fucking terrible and heartbreaking some of this shit I hear but i'm supposed to just stop being sad because it's not happening to me? I am completely grateful that I actually live in a house with a family and have some things that other people don't but that doesn't mean i can't be in a depression. Aug 9 1:11 PM UTC

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I hate the fact that my mom and dad refuse to get a divorce,although my Mom,me,and my little sister are moving out.By moving out,I mean living at my grandmas until my Mom gets enough money for a crappy house.It's not even a house,its a trailer.
I don't want to have to put up with the smell of old person and then have to smell the smell of trailer!I don't want to be the common trailer trash.I hate the fact that i'm probbably not going to camp this year.I hate that I can NEVER get any privavy in this family.My mom and sister even come in the bathroom when i'm in the shower!I hate that I can never express my emoitions when I really need to without being called either a brat or crazy.I hate when my emoitons get bottled up and come out at the wrong times.I hate that no one ever believes what I say,but they believe EVERYTHING my little sister says,so I get blamed for everytime she messes up.I hate that my older sister wants me on pills.I hate that my only friends hate me,or I hate them.
I hate that no one seems to care about me anymore.
I hate that i'm too sensitive.I hate the fact that I care more about animals than people.I hate that I know more about computers and my tv shows than I do my family.I hate that i'm so angry and depressed all the time.I hate that I don't like how I look,and neither does anyone else( my mom even called me a cow.Twice.)I hate that I trust no one.I hate that I always expect the worse.I hate that i'm too cynical about the world.I hate that I don't fit in at all.I hate that when I'm feeling smart,something comes along and I feel like a moron.
I hate my life.... Jun 1 12:34 AM UTC

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i hate how nothing helps me anymore. i tried therapy and it would make me happy for a while and then go right back to being sad, and no matter what i think i'm gonna be sad and fucked up for ever. oh and depression medication is shit it does nothing. Mar 11 9:15 PM UTC

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i hate this one song i hear all the time cuz it makes me so fucking sad.... i could be all happy and just having an awesome time all cheerful and then i hear the song and then i'm all sad for a while. stupid sad songs!!!

just so its not an evil cliffhanger. the song: Fix You by Coldplay

stupid sad songs.... Feb 24 7:21 AM UTC