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I hate that no one in my family has ever seemed to really listen to what I have to say.
I hate that I have ADHD and now that I'm on medication its awakening to the realization that I have no social skills and that I've lost all the friends that I had before I developed a major social/learning disability. I hate not having the right words for the right feelings. I hate that I hold myself back from being a success. I hate that I think I have potential with writing poetry, playing basketball and softball but that I'm too lazy and too afraid of what people will think about a girl playing basketball and a girl playing softball and being better than them. I hate my feelings. I hate my conscience. I hate my sister because she is prettier than me and everyone in my family gives her attention. I hate my mom because she tells me that I am never going to be skinny enough and I hate my dad because whenever I say anything to him he replies, "what?" Aka he doesn't ever hear my voice. I hate my sister because she was the only one that ever cared about me when I was sick but now that I'm on medication she is threatened by me. I hate myself and my family. I hate my life in this point and time. I hate that I'm almost 20 and still living at home and without a car. I hate that I've lost so many jobs. I hate that I don't have anyone to tell this to but a stupid fucking blog board. May 23 10:25 AM MST