link hereI hate being in high school. I miss being a child.
I hate the way things are right now.
I hate how now I always worry. About everything. When I was a kid I was carefree.
I hate how i'm failing alot of my classes, mostly due to the fact that I ditch all the time.
I hate that i've turned into such a bad kid. Ditching, smoking, drinking, sneaking out of the house with friends to get stoned, making out with friends....no matter what the gender....ugh. I miss the fact that when I was a child I was so advanced that they thought I was gifted and considered putting me forward a grade but decided not too just for my social interaction. Now? I'm failing so bad they wanna keep me BACK a grade. Wtf I used to make fun of people that flunked and had to re-do the grade again. Damn man.
I hate that school has become a beauty contest. I didn't have to worry about it so much when I was a little kid. I always thought I was a pretty kid. Now?
I hate myself so bad that I refuse to have pictures of me taken,
I hate being seen,
I hate mirrors....
I hate that when I was a kid I had close friends that I saw all the time. There was never a dull weekend.
I hate the way my newer friends treat me. I never see them for one.... they rip on me every chance they get which is ok sometimes but they take it way too far and it pisses me off. I miss thinking sex and kissing is gross. I want sex so bad it hurts.
I hate that highschool years are considered the 'best years of your life!' when it sucked for me.
I hate that when I was a kid I wanted to grow up so bad because my brother was in highschool when I was a little kid and he made it look like so much fun. Now my style, taste of music, pretty much everything is very similar to his (by choice not only because of him he just influenced it) and it's not nearly as fun as it looked.
I hate that when I was a kid I wanted a car so bad and at first driving was great. Yeah I could drive aroud with friends and party...oh but there's just one problem...THERE'S NOWHERE TO GO!!!!!! And my friends that can't drive use me for car rides. And of course work. Ok I know I don't HAVE to work. It was my choice so I could get money and maybe improve my social skills because i've become so anti-social which of course was never a problem when I was a kid. My job sucks. The customers can be such assholes, The people I work with can be total pricks. ugh.
I hate that driving looked so fun and it's actually a pain in the ass when you HAVE to do it. I just really hate being older. It sucks. Someone please invent a time machine and let me use it for the love of God!!!
Dec 27 1:33 AM MST