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I hate that I used to dream of my future when I was younger. I hate that my dreams used to be filled with optimism and hope. I hate that I believed in it. I don't dream these things anymore. I hate that I can't dream past the hellhole I'm in right now, because I know I will kill myself before I ever get there. At least people will have something to talk about. Sep 4 2:32 PM MST