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I hate getting older and realizing that that is my turn to look after my parents. I hate not feeling like I’m ready to be that responsible and not really sure what to do. I can admit that they were not the perfect parents but they did their best and now it is my turn and I hate being so scared. I hate living so far away from them and I hate more that they are so far apart so even if I do decide to move back ‘home’ to take care of them I would have to choose between them. I hate not having enough money to look after myself let alone if God forbid anything would have to happen to them. I hate feeling so confused and helpless!! Nov 25 4:23 AM MST