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i hate that im always the 'nice' guy with my friends. everyone likes me and they like to hang out with me and stuff. and i have MANY female friends. but theyr just not attracted to me :S. and it sucks so much. many OF THEM got into relationships and stuff all because of me i let them meet the other person and i get them together but theyr just not attracted to me although they LOVE me as a very close friend. they tell me everything about their love life and stuff but i just dont like it, i like it in a way though, they like as a bro but i mean cmon :S. I REALLY NEED A GIRL :$. telling ur best friend everything is just not enuf. BTW IM A GOOD LOOKING GUY and im so sure!

i hate another thng. MY BEST FRIEND IS AMAZING I LOVE THAT GUY but he gets all the girls. he goes out with someone then dump her after like 5 days. BTW ALL THE PPL IM MENTIONING ARE BEST FRIENDS! I MEAN WEN WE DO SUMTHING WE DO IT TOGETHER WER SO CLOSE! anyways, then i cant ask that girl out cuz my friend was with her and he h8s her. for example my (best)friend knws who i like, i traveled, so he went over and they kissed and shit while liking (him) another girl and he told me. im sad and a bit happy, im sad cuz he lost his girl, and a bit happy cuz he kissed with that girl she's hot, SEE THIS IS SO MUCH FUCKED UP! I JUST SAID IM HAPPY! I LOVE HIM!(NOT in a gay way)! I FORGIVE ALOT!

i also hate that im not the oldest among them BUT IM SO FUCKING MATURE god i hate it! they keep fighting wen im not with thme!!! omg!

oh and i hate that i never REALLY REALLY gotten into a girl. i never met a girl that likes the same stuff that i do. my music for example. al my friends go like omg ur music is so annoying why do u like metal? this is effed up ppl! i mean im not gay! but cmon! i need a girl that likes the stuff i like! :S

i just wanna say that i love u guys and i cant live without you even tho ur lives are fucked up. THATS WHY I LOVE U! I HATE BEING THE NICE GUY! DO I HAV TO BE A 'BAD' PERSON JUST TO GET A GIRL THOSE DAYS?
fuck it >< Aug 4 1:04 AM MST