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I hate that I can never really hate someone. I can fume for a while, but eventually goes away and it usually never really bothers me. Some people are worth getting angry, and sometimes I feel like I'm afraid of actually lashing out at someone. But I realize that anger is a terrible feeling. I can have built-up anger for days, and if I don't release if somehow, I end up making myself sick. The worst part is that I can't just hit something...or something. How satisfying would it be to just nail that one really frustrating person?!?! I hate that when I get really angry, I cry. I can't just yell or scream or hit/throw something. I have to cry, because it hurts. It hurts to hate because its unnatural. What's the point of exerting so much energy and time into the forced disliking of something or someone when you can move on and be stronger than your hate. Don't let the thing you hate control you, that will just piss you off even more. Still, I do hate that hate is such a strong and painful emotion for me. If I were an emotionally weaker person, I can safely say that I would have been put in Juvi by now, because there are a lot of people I would have beat the shit out of by now...... May 21 3:29 PM MST

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i hate that i suffer from a depression that hasn't been diagnosed yet. i hate that i try to tell my mom and she just tells me that i have to stop being so damn crazy or she will throw me out of the house. NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL CONSTRUCTIVE!!! my mom actually thinks that will work...and she just went through a medical something so i won't tell her that i've been cutting myself again and that i've been thinking about death...she doesn't need to know. Oct 7 5:52 AM MST

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I hate it when emotions screw up someones entire function of logic and they make big decisions based on faulty logic that's been sedated by emotion. Sep 24 6:48 PM MST