link herei hate my life.
i hate me and
i hate every sorry goddamn person in it. grrrrr....
i hate that people judge me for the colour of my skin.
i hate that people pretend to be your friend when they are all just assholes.
i hate that my boyfriend fancies my best mate. i hte that everyone thinks i am a slut.
i hate that i feel used,
i hate that i feel like a damaged fruit, a disposal peel, a DIY girl.
i hate that everyone expects me to be soo perfect when they themselves are not.
i hate how people expect me to act.
i hate that now my boyfriend and i have split, i feel empty. i hat that no one in school likes me.
i hate my friends who deserted me, the family who disowned me, and myself for trying to find solace in the wring things like sex, drugs, alchohol, and self-harm.
i hate these scars.
i hate that im not strong enough to say no.
i hate that i put out for the one boy i reely did like, and now he wont even look at me becasue he has no reason to.
i am a worthless whore, a slag, a bitch, a waste of space, pointless existance, a ugly, lonely, wasted, unloved, bloodstained, hopeless human being.
how do i deal with all this unsatisfied anger and inward turning hate??
how do i live with myslef know that
i hate soo much??
how can i live with the embarassment of bearing my name??
how is this life???
May 19 5:17 PM UTC