link here
I hate that I pushed all of my friends away because I am so different from them. I have a different attitude, opinions, I even dressed different, I choose different subjects in high school, in college I have different ambitions.

I hate that every time I voiced my view- they would all laugh or completely ignore me.

I hate they would bag me for talking to someone ‘they’ didn’t like(because they all loved and hated the same things .. see?).

I hate that I always tried to organise things to do.. like go camping, the beach, a drive, coffee, surfing, ANYTHING besides drinking excessively in a sleazy clubs and smoking weed-I mean, sure, I am happy to do that for a bit, but, please can’t you just do something different for once?

So now I cut them from my life. Believing I would make new friends.. what friends? Its so hard when you have finished college.. Everyone at Uni all ready has their clicks.

I hate being alone. May 2 10:10 AM MST

link here
I hate not having any culture. I feel like I am nothing. I am half black dont know my black dad so I dont know my black side and my entire family is white. I hate that all I have is british. And even if all I know is that if a 1/2 british fine lets eat some haggis and have some tea. I hate that I have never been to britain. I feel like Im washed out. I hate just speaking english. I hate looking different but not living different. I hate being nothing. Jan 11 10:40 AM MST