link hereI hate when you meet a boy and you genuinely think something more will come out of it - all the signs were there but then he basically never talks to you again and nothing ever happens, he just becomes some guy you spent a night which you felt was awesome and clearly, as much as you thought it was great, meant nothing at all to him!!...in effect - I spent an entire night with a cute guy the other night and I could have sworn there was more to it than just a one night fling, he said he liked me and he sent me a message the next day thanking me for such a fun night together (when he says fun, it had nothing to do with anything physical.. we didn't even hook up, however, he did try and because I thought there was more than just a physical connection, I resisted, some crazy logic i had at the time, but that's beyond the point). I really want to be with him. I have liked him for a while before that and when hope popped out its little silly head I was like hooray then just like that my hope has gone.
I also hate that other boys ask me to do stuff and message me and constantly talk to me and are clearly interested but not the guy I like! It is so frustrating when a message or a call pops up from someone else and you get so frustrated because it's not from the person you like but from someone you would rather not even talk to! HATE HATE HATE. It sucks waiting around by your phone for a message or call that never comes! you just constantly look and just before think ‘it’s been two seconds, maybe in that time he has come to his senses and messaged me!’ and then surprise there is nothing there!!!
I also hate that some guy, I have spent time with, even times they could interpret as 'special nights' are nothing to me. It gets me thinking; if I find it so easy to lead a guy on then others can clearly do it with just as much ease. Then I kind of hate myself because I feel mean for being part of this horrible leading on process.
I hate how tempted I am to message him and I know it's the wrong thing to do because they should do it themselves but it's just so tempting because you keep thinking 'what if they are thinking the same thing right now about me not messaging them?' as in 'man if she likes me then she should be talking to me!'. But seriously, when you have shown your primary interest, it's the boy's turn... face it girls, it's their job primarily! Well, in the beginning anyway. In my current circumstance, I have done my job. I have shown my interest enough. If he likes me he will do it. Maybe I should have hooked up with him? Speculation is a bitch. Stupid boys!!!
I hate what they do to us!
Aug 24 1:00 PM UTC 
