link hereI hate not having a religion.
I hate feeling like everyone else is so secure about what the world.
I hate that even if I try to pray to God or the Creator, that there is always this one little voice telling me that I'm probably just wasting my time and making myself look stupid because there is a 50 percent chance that no one is listening anyway. I also hate that I can't NOT believe in God, because I feel like there are just so many things that can't be explained, and that life and the universe and everything around us is just way to AMAZING to be the result of some freak accident.
I hate being so CONFUSED and sitting on the fence. I wish that I could just ignore my inner thoughts and become an orthodox Christian or hardcore Muslim with unwavering beliefs. It would be so much easier.
Dec 6 2:58 AM MST