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I hate how I'm starting to fall in love with my best friend.

I hate how I think our relationship is going to turn out like some stupid movie scene. We're childhood friends, then suddenly puberty hits, and one of us starts to fall for the other.

I LOVE how he's not a totally good looking guy. He has some acne (very little), really quiet, extremely smart, sharp-tounged, wears glasses, and we love the same things.

I hate when he smiles at me with that damn cute smile and starts to make me melt in my shoes.

I hate how he'll sometimes bring the fact up of me for my astraphobic moment years ago when it was violently storming and I was making a hysteric crying fit.

He was the one holding me, telling me it was alright.

I hate how I made such a scene in front of him at the theater when I screamed that I loved a certain movie. Hell, I was excited. I wish I didn't embarras him though.

I hate how he wants to take me out to eat at an expensive restaurant after he gets his first paycheck at his first job.

Is he trying to make me love him?

I hate how he makes it so easy for me to hug him and him not to think its out of love.

You idiot, I'm falling in love with you! I hate how you can't notice! Jun 13 5:16 PM MST

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I hate the way my 'best friend' is. All she cares about is her boyfriend. And when i'm with her when her boyfriend is around she ignores me unless an opportunity comes up to humiliate me infront of him to make her look cooler. He does the same thing. I hate how he's the only thing she talks about when we're together and she makes it seem like she doesn't want to be around me. I hate that she gets overly jealous if I talk to him. I hate that she's nicer to her other friends than me. I hate that she probably wouldn't care if I ever saw her again. I hate that I know exactly how she'll react. I'll talk to her online and she'll go on about how she misses me but won't make any effort to see me. I hate how hateful i've been toward her the last few months. I hate how she always manages to disappoint me. I hate that she's a shitty friend and i've been denying it. I hate that she always asks if she's a shitty friend and I say no when I want nothing more than to rant about how much I hate the way she is. I hate that if the phone started ringing and it was her I would be so overjoyed that I would forget about all this hate. I hate being way too forgiving...... Dec 27 9:39 AM MST

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I hate the fact that my best friend hates me. And that she just spent an hour yelling at me and telling what a crappy person I am. Then told my I shouldn't have such low self-esteem. I hate the fact that she cancelled my birthday thing, and that I'm sitting home alone watching Dr.Phil on my birthday. It's sad, so very sad. May 14 12:11 PM MST