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I hate that I had to be watched so closely after people found out I was becoming anorexic. I lost weight and it felt good and I liked being anorexic. I looked nice. I miss being 50 pounds lighter. I hate being forced to eat. And I hate people having to watch me eat. It's creepy I hate it. Then I have to be monitored to make sure I don't go to throw it up. I don't even have a gag reflex anyway. Fucking pricks. I hate when they say "oh we just wanna help" I didn't ask for your fucking help. I don't want your fucking help. Help me by leaving me the fuck alone. I wanna be skinny again. I was happier when I was starving and thin. I looked so beautiful. I hate the way I look now. I look so fat and ugly I wanna die. I'd rather die than live on being ugly. I wish I looked like Jessica Simpson or Angelina Jolie. They're so perfect and thin and beautiful. UGH I wanna be anorexic again! I hate these fuckers I wish they would leave me alone. Jan 18 6:50 AM MST