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I hate how obsessed I am with losing my virginity. I want to have sex so bad but the only people that will do it with me are my friends.... and I don't wanna ruin the friendship...ughh it's so retarded. Wanting to lose my virginty so bad is supposed to be a guy thing. I'm supposed to be 'saving it for someone I love when the time feels right and it's special' blah blah blah fuck that. I probably have sex on my mind more than guys do. Sex is all I think about. And although I just bitched about waiting for the right person and all that I am really waiting for someone i'd be comfortable with but I am NOT waiting for marriage. ohhhh no fuck that. I just wanna get this over with so I won't be so obsessive.....though i'm sure once I have sex i'll be more obsessive......
I hate that my family is always like "oh that guy's just trying to get into your pants!" No. I'm trying to get into HIS pants. HE'S the one not interested. fucker.
I hate that by the end of every night I feel like a loser because I have to resort to a vibrator.
Hopefully I will find the boy of my dreams.....so we can have wild crazy nights in the sack. Feb 8 1:55 PM MST