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I hate that we have to die. I hate that ive seen clips of other people dying in horrible ways and i can't help but imagine how much fear they are feeling in those moments. I hate that people tell everyone that death is a part of life, but i can't accept that because it's just too fucking awfull.
I hate that things don't seem to make sense, like how i am here, and aware to all of this in the first place, then when you find out that people die, you are supposed to get over it. Why can't we live forever? For some odd reason we are here, so why does that have to end?
I hate God when it comes to this. I feel like i am allowed to hate him. I know he is here, just like i know i am me. I sure wish he would show me some fucking relief sometimes about this. Jul 25 2:43 PM MST

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I've gotten to the point where the separation from home, the lack of a woman in my life and the mountains of work have dulled me beyond recognition.

I hate college, I hate you so fucking bad. I hate the mountains of work, the dungeon known as my dorm where I work/work/work and sleep. I hate the people who don't hate this place, I hate my classes, I hate that I'm stuck here because there are no other options I hate my roomate God it's a fountain of hate that spews and spews and won't stop.

Eventually though I won't be able to put two words together and my hate will build until I break something. So much hate and anger.... Feb 18 8:10 AM MST

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I hate the sign in my elevator. My apartment building elevator has this fucked up sign about energy conservation with a big fat ugly ass owl on it. And on the bottom of the gay poster theres this huge globby brown stain. I don't know what the hell it is but it is rank. When I get in the elevator it will be sparkling clean except for this huge disgusting shit glob that my eyes automatically land on and I stare at the whole ride in disgust. It makes me want to puke. I hate that shit glob on that stupid sign. Feb 1 1:33 PM MST