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I hate hate hate oxycontin along with all opiates! I hate being 22 years old and feeling like for the whole rest of my life its the only thing that will ever make me the slightest bit fulfilled. I hate that it killed one of my best friends and I still wanna do it every day. I hate fucking my girlfriend and feeling no love or passion and then blowing a fucking pill up my nose in solitude so I can just barely touch it. I hate idiots and hypocrites who take vicodin and percoset every day but look down on people that take oxycontin or heroine when its all the same exact thing and it'll all kill you or destroy everything good in your life if given half a chance. As much as I hate hard addictive drugs, I could spew volumes of hate for people that talk about how evil and bad drugs are (especially weed) and then go drink themselves stupid every single night like it's an iota better for you or your life or society because more people are doing it, and as much as I hate people that say things like "if everyone were to jump off a bridge would you do it too?" this alco-ignorant hypocrisy is basically the real life equivalent. On a related topic, I hate disgusting pharmaceutical companies that push these and other drugs on unknowing doctors or people like they're statistics and sleep soundly at night knowing they will harm of kill people. I hate feeling physically and emotionally sick and empty and above all I hate the fact that I live in a world where I have the capacity to feel such unbridled hatred for so many things so easily while fairy tales like love and happiness and friendship seem increasingly dead to me. I hate waking up in the morning and wishing I hadn't. Jan 27 9:36 AM MST