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I hate how overly paranoid I am. Death seems to be around every corner just waiting to either get me or someone I love very dearly. I hate that everytime my parents are late coming home I always worry that they died somehow. I hate that every time my parents come home it's like a blessing. I hate being afraid to ride in cars since the accident. I hate having terrifying realistic dreams of things blowing up or bursting into flames. I hate that i'm afraid of outlets so everytime I go to plug something in I end up getting scared and not doing it. I hate being afraid of mirrors. I hate that I always think i'm being watched. I'm afraid of everything! Even stupid supersticious things that most likely don't exist but you know....what if? Even as I type this I'm scared out of my mind. Jan 15 11:09 PM MST