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i hate seeing so many guys that complain about how horribe certain women are. why can't i find those guys! i hate that i want a serious relationship because i've never been in one. i hate that i am 20 and all the boys i've met who like me are scum. i hate that i liked so many guys that didn't even know who i was. i hate making up someones personality before i actually know them. it disappoints me everytime. i hate the reactions i get when i tell others i'm still a virgin. i will only have sex when i deeply care for the other person. i won't whore it out like so many girls my age do. i hate seeing so many men i am attracted to and yet nothing happens between them and me. i hate that i have horrible writing skills. i hate hating so many people and caring about the way they feel all the time. i hate being alone. i hate the idea of feeling like i might be alone forever. i hate having an imagination because i dream of having someone to care about all the time. Jan 5 4:17 PM MST