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I hate that my boyfriend is shy and that i am shy. There's just no sparks in our relationship and it's driving me crazy! I am trying to open up to him but somehow he makes me feel weird. He does the weirdest things sometimes... because he is shy? I do not know. There we were hanging out, my parents asked him if he wanted pizza... he said sure... then when its just us two he starts debating out loud and its weird and then he wants to go home. Who does that! It made me sad and now i am sad. Sorry for my whole diary thing. I hate how this is making me feel! I hate that i thought having a boyfriend would make me happy because in actuality it is making me more depressed than ever! Guys.. aghh! I hate this... Dec 30 11:23 AM MST