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I hate my mom for saying that if i didnt stop smoking pot i would have to move back to florida to live with my dad.I like smoking pot but i want to live with her and my brother. I hate decisions because they tear me apart. And i hate my dumbass cousin for telling on me. He smokes more pot than i do but he has an excuse "cuz he has ADD and its ok for him" I have no self esteem and when im high i forgot all about my insecurities. I hate the fact that the kids at my school are the ones who drove me to smoke pot because every time i look at them i feel like their looking through me and i wanna cut myself when i get home. I hate feeling like doing suicide evn though im surrounded by loving people and i feel like a selfish bastardevry time i contemplate it. Dec 18 2:09 AM MST