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I hate how I didn't get the whole "girls with low self esteem will have sex with almost anyone" thing until now. I hate that I lost my virginity to someone who I thought was THE greatest most wonderful guy. I hate how he used me just for a fuck and moved on to another girl atleast 5 days later. I hate how now he has a girlfriend. What's so special about her that they can have a relationship but i'm only good for a one night stand??? I hate that I gave it away to him the night I met him because he was too cute to say no to and with my looks I didn't think the opportunity to have sex with someone so cute would ever come up again. I hate how I didn't think it through and had no idea how much this could hurt. I hate that him and his friends are total assholes. I hate how he tells his friends he had sex with me because he was wasted because his friends think i'm an ugly piece of shit and he's ashamed. I hate that he said i'm 'lame in the sack' First of all what do you expect? I was a virgin! Second of all if you were too 'wasted' to remember anything then how can you critique me on my sexual performance? I hate him and his idiot piece of shit friends. And I hate his girlfriend too. She talks shit and gives me dirty looks everytime I see her. Fucking trashy cunt. I hate that this is all happening to me....when i'm only 16 years old......my life has completely changed over the coarse of a year. I only had my first kiss about 6 months before I had sex.....I hate that. Dec 8 1:55 AM MST