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I hate how I feed off of negativity. I hate that i'm not happy until everyone around me is completely miserable. I hate that I find satisfaction in the fact that people think i'm dark and cold blooded. I hate that I find comfort in my friends or family being mad at eachother. I hate that I always hope for a big fight to break out. I hate how seeing my friends cry over broken hearts makes me happy. I hate that I sold out my own cousin to see people get mad at her and when I saw them fight I liked it. alot. I hate that gray stormy weather makes me happy because it's so cliche. I hate that I get so annoyed by my mother when I know she's a nice person and she's just as miserable as I am. I hate that I make my parents miserable and I hate that they make me miserable in return. I hate that I bitch about mentally retarded people and i'm probably gonna wind up having a retarded child. I hate karma it blows. I hate the fact that i'm able to drain people's happiness away because I was taught all my life to stay away from those kinds of people and now I am one of them although my loved ones wanna be blind and deny it. We all know that i'm a toxic person. I'm such a drag that I can bring down the happiest person just by walking past them. I am the little sad girl with the pale skin and the long dark hair dressed in all black being followed by a rain cloud. I make the skies black, I make flowers wilt, I make rainbows disappear, I make happy playing children in the park cry and when everyone around me is crying......I smile. Nov 27 4:30 AM MST