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I hate high school sports. I hate that i used steroids, but i hate that i got caught. I hate that i was expected to carry this team on my back, I that i took the easy way out. I hate a college team wont even look at me anymore. I hate how i cant play high school sports anymore. I hate that I have an envelope from USC framed on my wall for football recruiting, and now its worthless. I hate that ive ruined my life. I hate how all i did for 8 years was spend hours and hours in the gym and now its for nothing. I hate what ive become, I lost everything, I lost my future, my brain, and respect. Sep 30 10:39 AM MST