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I hate that we have to die. I hate that ive seen clips of other people dying in horrible ways and i can't help but imagine how much fear they are feeling in those moments. I hate that people tell everyone that death is a part of life, but i can't accept that because it's just too fucking awfull.
I hate that things don't seem to make sense, like how i am here, and aware to all of this in the first place, then when you find out that people die, you are supposed to get over it. Why can't we live forever? For some odd reason we are here, so why does that have to end?
I hate God when it comes to this. I feel like i am allowed to hate him. I know he is here, just like i know i am me. I sure wish he would show me some fucking relief sometimes about this. Jul 25 2:43 PM MST