link hereI hate trying to "keep up with the Jones."
I hate that no matter how well I do, someone has done better, and
I hate myself for feeling so jealous all the time.
I hate that I constantly feel like I have to show up people I don't even know anymore.
I hate that I am jealous of everyone, and
I hate it when someone gets more attention than I do.
I hate myself for feeling like a failure because a grant for Cambridge was declined.
I hate myself for always wanting more, but even that is never enough.
I hate never being satisfied.
I hate that even my successes feel like total pathetic failures.
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