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I hate...
I hate how Im so angry, and full of distrust for anyone. I hate how I plan to kill everyone I meet or ways to get out of a fight alive. I hate to worry about ammunition weapon parts/service. I hate that I can't go any were unarmed. I hate thinking of the worse, and what I can't forget.
I hate how my body listens to my gut more than my head. I hate people making choices for others and how they should think.
I hate that I can't stop being a soldier when I have been out for years. I hate the nightmares my humanity gave to me.
I hate looking at ppl that think they have it all figured out and feel secure... what do they know..

I hate how my life turned out. I hate how a few choices can direct years of your life.
I hate the idea of how life is suppose to be. I hate that I really have few choices that I can really make in life. I hate wrecking my body for a meager living. I have no pride I fell shame.

I hate people... but I like individual. I hate that I have to be so different, in thinking humor and hobby. I never fit in with any one group.

I hate what war had done to me, and to my loved ones. I hate how cold my master Sergent was to my mother about my condition.

I hate that most ppl fear me on sight. I hate people that ask me stories about scars. I hate to worry about my family all the time.

but all in all I can still smile Apr 30 8:39 PM MST