link hereDear Dad.
What the hell?!
I hate how you left our family.
I hate how you just ruined our perfect life. We had it good. I always thought we were a solid family. And to drop a bomb shell like this right before christmas. To just leave and tell my mother, the women you promised to spend the rest of you're life with, you don't love her. That there is another women. That you don't want to fix this marriage. That you're getting a job six hours away.
I hate how you want to spend quality time with me. I do it cause mom wants me not to hate you. But I do. And I should. To think that you were in the arms of another makes me literally sick. Do you know how this has affected me? I don't eat as much. I sleep WAY too much. And I cry. I cry all the time. I take my anger out on people I care about. And you think buying my love will work? No dad, it just won't. Do you think after you yelled and swore at me that I would be okay? Do you think after you called me and idiot I would be okay? Do you think after you said that you weren't my 'primary care giver' anymore, that I would be okay? I act like it's okay, but really pops, it's not. I know you love me. But if you really loved me you would fix this and be my primary care giver. And why the heck did you quit you're other job. I don't give a shit that you hated it. We are poor now! I can't go out with my friends, I can't get new clothes, I can't have a life! We have no money for fun. Mom's job doesn't pay well enough.
I hate that you ruined things.
I hate that I, a fifteen year old girl, has the weight of the world on my shoulder. Because of you.
I hate you.
Mar 29 6:03 PM MST