link hereI hate having sex with my selfish, sleazy, childish husband.
I hate how sexually aggressive he is.
I hate how he acts like we're making some low budget porn flick every time I try to show intimacy.
I hate that he always has to escalate things to full blown sex. I can’t even hug or touch him without feeling like I'm giving him blue balls.
I hate that he doesn't seem to care about what I want or need sexually. I've told him so many times that being sleazy and rushing things isn’t working for me, that I've stop telling him.
I hate how he rolls his eyes when I tell him I need to ease into things and feel like we can be physical and intimate without it leading to full on sex.
I hate how he can say the most insulting hurtful things, then try to suffocate me with his touch and get angry if I don't fake pretend that I forgive him.
I hate when he touches me.
I hate forcing myself to have to think about him sexually.
I hate myself for thinking about other men.
I hate him for always saying any sex problem we have is my fault.
I hate myself for always going back to blaming myself for our sex problems, just because it's the easiest thing to do.
Jul 29 11:56 AM MST