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I hate how I love him, but don't want to be with him. I hate how sometimes I can't even tell if it is love. I hate that I don't want him around so I can go out and pick up random guys. I hate that sometimes I feel that I have to hang out with him opposed to wanting to hang out with him. I hate that I kissed that random drunk guy the other night. I hate that I made out with my ex a few weeks ago. Why do I do some of the things that I do. It's all cause it's easier. Am I that lazy, or is it because I just want to live life in the now, and forget about the future for awhile. Is it because I'm young and have so much ahead of me that I don't want to restrict myself. Sep 25 6:16 AM MST