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I hate that I seem to always be worried that I'm going to get pregnant despite the fact that I take birth control every day and my boyfriend and I always use a condom. I know that I shouldn't have to worry because of that, but I guess just knowing that there is the slightest chance and that it would ruin all of my dreams is scary. I hate that I still have to wait a few days to get my period. I hate that I actually am glad to get my period these days. I hate that I'm so scared I'm going to do something to keep me from getting my degree and some great job. I hate that I'm not even sure if that is really what I want so maybe a small part of me wants it to be ruined. May 8 3:53 AM MST