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I hate that my boyfriend's porn usage makes me feel so insecure. I hate that he doesn't look at women that look remotely like me. He seems to have a fetish for women that look completely different than me. I hate that. I hate that I don't watch porn and accept it. I hate that I can't just force myself to like it. I wish he found me as sexy as he finds these porn stars. It makes me feel like I should go become a porn star and do a lot of things that way I can feel like other men like me. I hate feeling insecure. I realize society has "accepted" porn, but I do not. Mainly just because I feel it is cheating, especially when he knows it hurts me and he just hides it and it makes me feel so terrible. Feb 7 8:53 PM UTC