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I hate my intense fear of diseases. Everytime I hear of a disease I always fear that I have it. It's a mistake to watch any sort of medical show because they name off so many diseases that I must have one of those. And I'm soooo afraid of dying but at the same time sooo afraid and embarassed by doctors. So lately i've been TRYING to become more of a health freak and I guess that's a good thing but so far it's only slightly improving with time and everytime I have something fattening I always feel extremely guilty and terrified that I may have a heart attack. I'm 16 and kinda overweight and deathly afraid of heart attacks and diabetes. And because i'm only 16 and only kinda overweight people tell me not to worry so much and to just cut back on fatty foods and exercise. But the thing is no matter what I am going to be deathly terrified of disease because there are just so many of them. I hate disease. I wish it didn't exist. Mar 5 1:37 PM MST