link herei hate that all of my friends are in relationships and i feel like the only single person at the party.
i hate that they cant go anywhere without their partner or constinatly talking about them.
I hate that i feel like some of my friends settled just because they enjoy the idea or being in a relationship, when really it probably just because im jealous.but they could do soooo much better!
i hate that i cant seem to meet anybody.
i hate that im too picky.
i hate feeling sad an lonely but just covering it up by pretending i dont care or with buckets of sarcasm.
i hate the idea of settling and being to tied down to achieve everything i want to do in life. but
i hate the idea of having to do all those things alone!
i hate being jealous of people in love when all i want is someone to love me.
i hate that im writing all of this on the internet because i wont talk to my friends about it because i have never opened up or told to complete truth to ANYONE in my entire life.
i hate that im graduating uni this year and finally starting my career, but have never even had a boyfriend.
i hate that i close up around new people and wont let them in.
i hate that i say completly inappropriate things to people because i get nervous and then i leave.
i hate that i feel so sad when i know i have alot going for me.
i hate when people ask me "so are you seeing anyone" like its their fucking business!!
i hate that i dont know how to talk to people or flirt and
i hate that i cant ask people out even if i really want to.
i hate how i obsess about people till i start to hate them, just to i dont get too sad when i realise i missed a good opportunity to ask them out.
i hate likeing my friend for the last 7 years even tho he's not right for me.
i hate one of my closes friends boyfriend which have driven us apart.
i hate that i could not talk to most of my friends again and not be sad about it.
i hate that.
i hate all of that. and alot more. but i have to get up for work tommorow morn and i have to go to bed now.
and
i hate that too.
May 11 8:51 AM MST